Melissa+S

__Around Then…__

** Around 2003 **, I made the transition from man to beast, from Indian to Cougar.
 * Around 2006, ** I emerged as one of the ‘crazy crew’.
 * Around 2009, ** I spent a lot of time with Jim Lee and Bruce Wayne.
 * Around 2008, ** I was first introduced with a smile.
 * Around 2009, ** I realized that they were my best friends.
 * Around 1993, ** I first opened my eyes and greeted the world.
 * Around 1998, ** All I could say was “Are you serious?!”
 * Around 2007, ** I tossed a rifle for the first time.
 * Around 2008, ** I picked up my silks and weapons and marched to perform.
 * Around 2009, ** I cried at the words, “And first place goes to…Edgewood High School.”
 * Around 2007, ** I met my best friend…her name is Savannah …or… Suhh-something or another…whatever….she feeds me.
 * Around 2005, ** I wanted to be published someday.
 * Around 2009, ** Rock salt, Pie, Roux-ga-roux, abs, Bobby, Winchesters, CASTIEL!!! (Supernatural <3)
 * Around 2009, ** I found a family, not bound by blood, that changed my life completely.
 * Around 2007, ** I let the Pacific Air fill my lungs as I stood on the shore of Waikiki.
 * Around 2009, ** I found God. :)
 * Around 2012, ** The world is not going to end.



__ Squedersh. :) (Faith Christian Fellowship of Trenton.) __

-Melissa Smith.

Around 6 P.M., It’s a Wednesday night. The parking lot is bathed in a sunset glow. Cars are slowly flowing in, As we smile are greet each other.

Around 6 P.M., They tune the instruments, The room is filled with people I love. They pull out their worn bibles, As we all take our seats.

Around 8 P.M, That same Wednesday night, The parking lot glows with the red taillights. Cars slowly headed home. Smiles and goodbyes all around.

Around 8 P.M., They turn off all the lights, The room is empty, but full of love. They are my family. And the ones that I won’t ever let go of. 


 * //__Observation assignment.__//**

I observed my brother Dan. He never does anything, ever. So my theory is that when you don’t do anything, it will affect your academic and social life. Thus, the ‘sloth’ theory.

On the first day, Dan did exactly as I would expect him to do. Sit in his dark room and play World of Warcraft. Six out of the seven days in a week you can find him lying in bed playing some sort of video game. On that one day that he may do something else, you could find him lying out in the sun, giving in to a false appearance of a love for the outdoors. Or maybe he will be out with the other creatures of that nature, being his friends.

It affects Dan’s social life in that he never goes out and does anything. He hardly leaves the house, therefore having no social life. His only social interaction is through the video games with people he knows, his friends, and such. It affects his academic life as well. Being that, he is never motivated to do his work. He is constantly thinking and acting out of the video game. When he is in class, conversations always have to do with the games.

I found that The Sloth Theory is very active in my brother. Dan would lay in bed, yell for people to bring him things, and would not move. Lazy. Sloth-like. What makes someone so lazy that they won’t even move? The thought baffled me.

**__  Hourglass   __** What would you say? You know, what would you tell them? Everyone? When the time comes, what would you regret not saying? All the life, memories and the forgotten words, the harsh realities and the remembered songs, what would you choose to talk about? What would you do if the hourglass started running out of sand? And whom would you miss? There is an air of regret in what would be, if I never got to tell them. So, tell me, what would you say if it all ended tomorrow?
 * Melissa Smith  **

I have thought about it, for a long time. There are so many unspoken words, so many unknown feelings and opinions that are still bottled up inside. I think I would let her know the disappointment that I’ve always felt. Let her know about all of the heartbreak that seems to just hit the surface as I was growing up. That is what I would tell her, that is what I would say to my mother. But that isn’t all I would say to her, I would want her to know how thankful I am, and how I know that she is trying as hard as she can, and I would want her to know how much I really do care.

I would tell him that I am sorry we couldn’t be everything that he imagined, that I apologize for all of what has happened in his life. I would want to say to him that there is always love here and that I am thankful to have him as a father. I would want him to know that in the end there is nothing I regret. I wish that is how I could be, I wish I could die with no regrets.

I would tell all of them exactly what they mean to me, I would tell them everything that I have kept inside. I would show them my heart and hope for the best, at least they know, right? I would tell them, how much they have helped me, how much they have guided me exactly to be who I am today. I would let them know just how much they mean to me. I would thank them for being my friends, and for helping me stay sane. I want to tell them all how much I love them, my mother, my father, and my friends. If only I had the courage to tell them all of that.

So I suppose, that’s what I would say. You know, if the world ended tomorrow. There are too many things I have to say, and there is so much left to be said. So I pray that my words are like the pen of a ready writer and like the impact of one loud voice in a quiet room, to help me to say what needs to be said, and to forgive and forget. So I guess I go back to the beginning. What would you say to them? Everyone? If the world ended tomorrow, what would you have to say?